I’m 83 pounds, nearly 5’2”.
My legs are one of the first things I examine in my pictures. I’ve grown up knowing how unhealthily skinny I am. And since I’ve become more active on Tumblr, I’ve become more cautious about the way I portray my body (especially my legs) in self portraits.
In a lot of Korean fashion photographs, girls are shown with the tiniest legs. I’ve never learned to like my legs until I started growing an interest into Korean fashion.
But then again, I’ve never been so disgusted with myself.
Every day, I look at my legs, making sure I havent gained any extra fat. If I sit down and my thighs touch, I just wont sit. Or, I will prompt up my feet, so that my thighs wont touch the chair.
When I was taking the pictures of my legs, I promised myself I wouldn’t edit it in anyway. And looking at the photos, I almost wanted to cry.
I’m torn because, in the majority of american minds, stick thin legs aren’t anything to be proud of. It’s gross and not right.
Call me a people pleaser, because sometimes I fall for worldly things and care about what people think of me, but I know you all can relate.
I think my followers are really mature, so I think you’ll be able to handle this. I’m starting a new tumblr series of mine, about my own insecurities.
A little while ago, I went to camp and within my cabin we played a game called “If you really knew me.” I cant even explain how emotional it was to hear the struggles of people you thought you knew so well. But uplifting knowing I wasn’t the only one going through them.
Anyways, I wanted to sort of show you guys things or insecurities of myself, in hopes that you can know that you’re not the only one struggling through life in this weird, messed up society.
I’m not looking for reblogs or likes, I just want you to be aware that you’re not alone.